I am...

How would I start introducing myself? Heck, I don't even have the slightest idea on how to describe myself. It's always hard to talk about yourself. You don't know what impression would people get from you. I even may take hours contemplating who I really am... sigh. So, here's the thoughts and confessions of a guy, who is, practically trying to lie about his age (ehem!); who is very much enjoying life but still deals with his own issues and setbacks; who loves to watch movies, read, and the beach; who is very old school at heart (wheee); a frustated athlete who wanted to win games for himself but is always at the losing end; who dreams of becoming a musician, a reality TV star, and a filmmaker. All these and more! (doctor, tour the world, photog, toyshop owner). Bottomline, a 20- year old dork who struggles to make the most out of his life.

You see, I've always been ambitious. I'm a sucker of reality TV and fantasizing myself to be part of a reality search. That one day, I'll win the title American Idol, or even the sole survivor-- perhaps, tour the world in a race and arrive first on the last pitstop. I envy musicians, those who could play instruments and understands the technicalities of notes, rhythm, and lyrics. I for one couldn't actually play the guitar perfectly. Back in gradeschool, my mother won't enroll me into piano lessons suggesting that learning the guitar is better. Funny thing, we didn't spent money for guitar lessons, it's because my mother was my teacher. But having your mom as your teacher is plain agony. Basically, I just knew how to strum the guitar when I was seventeen (that was roughly 3 yrs. ago...hehe). You know why I love to watch movies? It's because I'm trying to imagine that someday my name will also be on the movie credit. You may actually think I'm crazy! After all, dreaming isn't a crime. But who doesn't dream big? I dream big, far more bigger than what you qualify big.

I know I'm probably boring you of talking about what I wanted. but, here's the deal: " Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away" (from the movie, Hitch). And as long as there are moments that takes my breath away. I won't stop exploring my interests. I won't stop daring to do what I never thought I would. Hell, I won't stop dreaming and making my dreams real!